okay, so an extremely embarrasing event happened to me the other day. here goes: I was walking by the st anthony library. i look over at someone bending down over a bike. i think to myself <hmm, that looks exactly like gus ganley.> so i go up behind "gus" and punch him really hard in the butt. the next instant i was really surprised at how bony the butt was, but before i could give it anymore thought, the guy turned around and it was a 70 something year old man. he turns around with the most bewildered look on his face and i run about a foot to my car as fast as possible after expressing my deepest regret. as i was hurriedly getting into my vehicle, the old man walks by with his bike and says <well at least ppl in st anthony are friendly.>


dont ask me why i thought the old man looked like gus from behind.

PS if you wanna hear some really good music, listen to METRIC!!!! They are really pretty and sad and floating and happy music. it pretty much gives me every emotion. an "old friend" gave me their cd.

which leads me to the next topic of my entry.

so i hung out with an "old friend" for the first time in months. awkward at first, but as the evening wore on, i felt more comfortable. it was a long evening. so he came to my house and we ate sammiches and freezies. then my mom came home and flipped out because the garage door was open so we decided to leave before my mom got more psycho. we went over to his house and i looked at his photos he takes for photography. he's really good by the way. after hanging out at his house for 20 minutes, he said <PHOTO SHOOT!> so we drove around looking for an ideal photo shoot area and successfully found one down Old Highway 8, an old gas station across from the long lake park entrance. he took a bunch of pics of me by the old building and we got some really creative ones. then we went to long lake park so i could splash in it. then he drove my car to joe felegys house because there was a barbecue. digital will, saul, and ryan nelson were already there. we hung out at joes and then decided to go bowling. in my car it was him and ryan, and soon after, alex stephenson had joined. we ended up not going bowling and just drove around and did really random stuff, including going to *keasha's work, the D.Q., and apparently she was really pissed at him for going in there with me....? im sure it was jealousy. we ended up going to his house. i took a short nap on his couch while the other kids played on the computer and played with the keyboard. he made me a peanut butter and honey sammich and i quietly listened to him complain about how keasha was mad at him and how they were supposed to hang out later that night and now she didnt want to or whatever so i comforted him the best i could and kept my mouth shut. then i had to drive nelson over to joes house because his car was over there. i went home and texted him to see if everything was alright with him and keasha. he texted back and said that it was but he was sad and drinking at the park. so i'm like, damn i better go over there to make sure he doesnt do something stupid. i go to the park and by this time it's about 11:00 or 11:30. we laid on the bridge thingy together, sharing his head phones and listening to depressing coldplay music. then keasha came (friggin poopsicle!!!!!) and got mad that i was yet again with him. she left with her friends right away, so here i was, at fault for her anger against chris AGAIN, and so we swung on the swings and i gave him a back rub. then he said "i really think i should go to keasha's house." i'm like, great just great. i really wanted to punch this girl in the face, but i kept my cool. i drove home, he walked to her house, and that was the end. i went home to lay in my own pity, sulking and pouting and thinking about the old days. it was a tough night. i put up with a lot of my own emotional shit and i'm really proud of myself for being so mature about it the whole evening. i tried to give him my best advise about girls and such, feelign the greatest pain in my body i have ever felt. good thing i will never be over 'him.' well actually i am over him, i'm just not over the old him.

i made this seem like a bad day, but in truth, i dont regret anything at all. i'm not complaining about him either because none of it is his fault, it's only mine and if i can't deal with it then it is myself to blame. i actually enjoyed being with him because he is someone i can act normal around. and if keasha makes him happy, then i am happy too. and i dont have a problem with keasha, i guess, (except for the fact that she makes him feel like shit) and i'll have to deal with her anyways so i better get used to it.


i already know a majority of you know who 'him' is, and i can already see jakey's reaction to this lj. this is long, i'm done. and to all of you, i'm sorry for being so lame.